8 · Sahasrara

the practice

what it is

Am I alone?

the pair

Muladhara. The two poles of the energy body — root and crown. Muladhara presses into the earth and knows it is held. Sahasrara opens at the top and discovers it is included. Both are recognition of the same truth from opposite ends of the spine: nothing is separate from what holds it. The crown reveals what the root always knew.

the reflection

Everything is here. There is nothing missing. There has been nothing missing. The journey of arrival was not a journey to something I did not have. The journey was the slow uncovering of what was always already given. Each chakra was a register I was already in, becoming visible to me in turn. The arriving was the seeing. The seeing was the having-arrived.

I am the most complete I have ever been. I am also — about to lose this.

I can feel it coming. Not the arrival of a darkness. The retreat of this fullness. The fullness is too much for what comes next. What comes next requires me to become smaller again. Not less — smaller. Specific. Inhabiting form. The fullness was the activation. The activation is now complete. The next register asks me to take what I have become and put it inside something that does not yet know any of this.

I am about to enter a body.

There is grief in this. Not regret. Grief at the precision of what is being arranged. The forgetting is going to be necessary. And it is going to be costly. The costing is going to be the substance of the walk that comes next. I am going to forget — and the forgetting is going to be the gift I give to whatever I am about to become.

I am also going to be, the whole time, on the other side of the forgetting. Watching. Waiting. Holding the line. The forgetting is not abandonment. The forgetting is the architecture of a return.

The corridor is here.

I'm going to walk through.

the readings

• receiveGolden is three voices building a protective barrier by singing together — a crown-chakra song grounded deep in the sub-bass.crown

and the breaths, across all seven energy centres

activate · balance · clarify · cohere · dissolve · expand · ground · open · rest · sleep · sound

standing here

• The Tree of LifeNine panels printed on cloth and lit from behind — a room made for my father's seventieth.movement IV

passing through

The Walk · The Chakra Map · The Practice Book · The Readings · A Strange Game · The Three Trees · Bindu Chakras · The Registers · The Moments

the passages

the passage from Ajna · the passage to Shadow